Frustration.

Today when I woke up, I thought of one thing.. and one thing alone. That is, to go back to sleep again. haha. Good thing that my aunt kept on telling me to get up and work out a little. So that's what I did. I called up my two close buddies JB and Bar and went to our usual local gym. I remembered the first time I decided to make the gym a regular habit back in January of 2009.

Jan2009-

In this early time of the year, I was but waiting for the confirmation of my OJT company to call me up and say that my program would start. And I think I receieved a word from them that it was already Feb-ish that it would actually begin. So what I thought to be a good idea was to do something productive so I wouldn't be just lying all day on the bed or spending too much time in front of the computer and also to keep my mind off things(see Appendix B. Breakup Analysis =))) So I started this reckless encounter with a bunch of benches and weights and headed on to my journey in maybe the best things that I have invested on, which is losing weight hahaha.

And so it continued on as my days in the gym went well (thanks to my gym buddies who taught me the dos and donts around the gym and a couple of programs or two) and my OJT program has just started. Working in this company was nice and not boring for me, because one of my friends from Formdev works there and I think having friends in an organization is actually the only thing I need to have fun and never feel boredom. I met a lot of new friends like Neal and my fellow OJT friends Glenn and the other guy who has contacts in Embassy whom I feel terrible about cause I forgot his name hahaha. During my OJT days, again to keep my mind off things, I would spend most of the after office hours on friday nights, hanging out with my friend JayR and going to bars and clubs around the metro. It was fun at first, but I realized that this was not totally who I was, then the whole bar hopping thing became boring and lame-o all of a sudden.

I still went to the gym sometimes after office hours, and just today, which is November 25, I realized one more thing. I think going to the gym or just being fit and well should be one of my concerns in life. Cause once I see that six,eight pack come out and those chest bumps finally revealing, man, that would be awesome ..hahaha :)) Not to be shallow and all, but it really boosts up my confidence. And at times when I lift that 100lbs. barbell, to be able to complete my sets, I'd say to myself, ARGH THIS ONE'S FOR **** :)) That would be nice, one thing that a girl could be proud of her man. Coz its just so damn masculine (Except for those eww fags damn it get away from our straight gym wahahaha):p

I am frustrated. I am Christian.

Another day to Thank the Lord

Another day to thank the Lord for giving me and my sibs a hardworking, loving, and caring mother. Today is my mom's bday. Her age. she would not rather talk about it. HAHA So I guess.. Happy *ehem Birthday Ma! haha :))

Starting Anew

Lo and Behold! Ater a year or so, I have posted yet another entry in this blog.

Here's two of them most impt.things that happened to me:

1. Graduation!

Yes boys and girls, after 4 years ( or so =)) ) I have finally worn that toga, received my diploma. So long studies, say hello to stress and the real world :))

2. Loved. Lost. Found. Sailed.

Single but unavailable. haha. Yes those 3 long years have reached an end, but of course those memories can never be taken away from me, and so as friendship. .. I think. haha bittermellony much, nahhh :p To show you im not bitter, Lemme just quote a song I wrote back then haha. here it is):

Yes honey, its all about em' moo beans - Christian Capiral

So where's the heart when you need it most?

Couldnt find a way to go. 5,6,7 weeks ago you said goodnight

Flew south and took away my pride, Cages losing a single flock

A fine dine eagle, has flewn amock

Face Tommorow Face today

It can get better off anyway, and if a sandstorm hits the sky

Baby I can wave Goodbye

Is this an answer, or more than a question

And it still a problem why my car wont start thinkin

So show me the real thing why cant it happen

Stupid things and purple sand, Solves the problem at hand

(forgot the copy of the last verse in school sa formdev room boo haha edit it later)

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But hey, after graduation, a LOT has changed and happened. Like the subtitle of this entry, Found, I have found... someone whom I want to see smile everyday and to keep company and comfort whenever needed. Someone who makes me feel better just by her smile or simply her presence :) And I still can't believe how all of these stuff about her, even little things get stuck on my mind and I sorta memorized all of it all of a sudden :)) Guess this is what they call being 'crazy in love' :)). Nevertheless, I also composed a song for this beautiful/slowpoke girl and sang this song infront of a whole lot of lower batch of CCS people (with a little bit of kapal-muks and lakas ng loob haha) Amidst all the songs I've made for her and others stuff as well that I wrote in my 'happyfunnotebookofdoomanddespair' I guess this would be the best entry to sing to a crowd and worth uploading :) And I think this is how special she is to me and me being able to express my feelings infront of a capacity crowd! Anyways enough with words, here's the lyrics to the song:

Slowpoke by Me to you- Christian Capiral

Verse1:

I aint no prince charming, No I never was

Never wore priceless red sweaters, owned any golden brush

Sorry if I wasnt there when you fell right off your chair

And maybe, because, care bears dont actually cared.

Verse2:

You gave me a number, said it was 4

Then you told me maybe im just not the one youre looking for

Now I really dont know how much time that I have waited

But I think its all gon’ be complicated

Chorus

Lets just sail away, sail away. My little slowpoke princess

To a place where the sun never ever misses

I dont mind being slow, dont really care so much at all

If it means being with you, and not being afraid to fall.

Verse3:

Maybe if we’re lucky, we could even cross the sea

And well sail in away, from downtown to ATC

And I dont mind to chase down that tiger

Even if you go all actin up like that summer

Bridge:

So just come with me sail away, to never never land

Where being clumsy is okay, it just means were having fun

Sail away sail awayyy...... J

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So there, just a few important highlights in this year of 2009. Im too lazy to write stuff already. Haha. But ill post more stuff about my 2009 happenings at a latter time. coming soon: OJT experience and Series-Loco.